me.

was that an accident

y/n

answer me, baby

please don't disappear again

i missed it

i was downstairs

i left my phone for one fucking minute

i would've answered, god fucking knows

i would've answered on the first ring

i know we weren't supposed to do this

i know i know i know

but i can't pretend i didn't see your name

i've looked at this chat every day for two months

i never deleted it

i told myself i was over you

that's a lie

i got really good at lying to myself

not about you though

never about you

are you drunk?

because i'm trying really hard not to be hopeful right now

fuck

i missed you

is that a terrible thing to admit

i still don't know if you called because you wanted me

or because you forgot we don't do this anymore

either one hurts

i thought you hated me

i kept telling myself you had to

it made leaving you alone easier

i hated you too

i tried to

i wasn't very good at it

if this was an accident

just tell me

don't leave me staring at my phone wondering if i imagined seeing your name

i'm here

i've been here the whole time