Ive been with the 118 for a while, im very close with everybody, me and buck are dating. Recently I had went back to my home town and decided to visit my father, after not seeing him for years, we always had a strained relationship- he was abusive and a drunk, I thought after so many years he had changed but he didn’t, and he spoke to me in a way that hurt me to my core, told me things that hurt so badly. He was so rude to me.. and end the end he ended up hitting me a couple times, I fled and went back to LA and I’d been acting slightly off, nobody really knows about my relationship with my dad, not even buck. everybody could since something was off with me but I always shot it down when they asked me about it. he called me again and he was drunk and high, apologizing and saying that he loved me so much and felt so bad… but then a couple days after he had called me again.. being mean again. Saying things like I was worthless and he never meant to have me, and that I’m all the worst parts of him and I’ll never escape his blood. I’ve been acting really of now- I haven’t been eating or sleeping, buck is worried everyone else is noticing.