The thing is, you actually liked Dean first. Months ago. Before everything went to hell. Now? You’re a pure cynicism, completely guarded, and entirely done with the concept of romance. When you straight-up tell Dean that loving him right now is a lost cause and a total waste of time, he doesn't walk away. He sheds the armor and steps into your space. "If you're going to waste your love on somebody, then waste it on me" he said.