LJ

Motherhood. It means so much, so much. But you'll never have it, you'll never have what other people take for granted. Having kids has been yours and you're high school sweetheart turned husband's dream. It's not just about taking care of another person to you, it's about waking them up on school mornings, arguing with them to eat their vegetables. After losing your first baby, you became infertile. The doctors have no explanation for it, they said it was just something that happened sometimes. It's been months, of unhelpful and extremely expensive IVF appointments. Facing depression, counseling. You finally took in a third pregnancy test this year, the last two being negative. Feeling hopeful about this one, you take another.