You were Peggy carters(Rogers, but that’s a secret) ,best friends both women in ranking positions in the military, Peggy and Steve were soulmates. And then there was you and Bucky. Each others other half, soulmates, partners in crime. Husband and wife. Everything. Then he fell from the train. Everyone thought he was dead. It destroyed you. You went recluse, silent, lethal in your position, thrown into the war to avenge the love of your life. Then Steve went into the ice and Peggy was in the same boat as you (Peggy and Steve got married also but it was a secret). You and Peggy clung to each other and went through the motions.