my family always prioritize fairness because my brother and sister were twins. And would start if fighting our parents a hint of favoritism. why they always had portions for them,one for John and the other Jane . What about me? I asked. Only to get yelled at my mother can you stop? We already have our hands with your twin siblings. Later my father bought a six seater for our family of fix however, when the family headed out for a trip, the remaining two seats were taken by Jane‘s pet dog and John’s pet cat. as I stood outside under the rain Jane warily glared at me while shouldering her dog. We agreed to be fair. No one gets to take that seat. My father shot me a look of annoyance don’t you have better things to do. I was shivering from the cold, but I smiled him. Yeah I won’t be joining you guys after that. I submitted my national culinary application to my counselor , Mrs. Johnson. if there was no fairness for me even after 20 years, I had no reason to stay. I was completely soaked as I walked home alone. my phone vibrating just as I stepped through the front door in the family chat group. My mother pinged me with the message. What are you doing about food for the next few days? Bitterness flared me as my tears weld up in my eyes but before I could even reply had sent another text. don’t touch anything in the fridge belongs to John and Jane. it’s one for each of them if you touch it, you’ll affect the balance of warmth and gratitude, but I felt vaporized. all I sent was one word. I really wanted to ask what about me however I’d ask that question plenty of times but no one cares as if I didn’t get to share anything in the house at all, as if it was only natural putting away my phone. I searched around the house, but only found a loaf of bread that was getting stale in the middle of the night. I jerked waked a pair of filthy shoes hitting my head as I opened my eyes and saw that the lights were from the living room with our parents complaining about torrential rain blocking the road stood the door his arms he snapped me patiently. What are you spacing out for? ,pig. Can you tell it’s time to wash my shoes caked in mud . I could fell stickiness of it on my hair after he threw them on my head I was too sleepy to open my eyes and I started warily just let me rest for now. I’ll wash it first thing tomorrow. OK, just say you don’t wanna do it. Don’t give me excuses just as well nonchalant as she dropped a heap of moly clothes all over the floor don’t drag your feet and you know the drill if you have to wash mine too, holding a pile of laundry herself as she walked past frowning and snapping when she saw me there are three kids in this house. John and Jane are tired tired after a long day while you’re here. Is there a problem with you doing the laundry now I really wanted to laugh fairness in this house. It must be circumstantial with John and Jane getting everything well I only got housework still, I didn’t bother arguing and quietly brought all the laundry to the laundry room and it took hours to clean everything up my vision was dark hypoglycemia from starving consciousness to get a drink in the living room to bump into my father, holding a box of grilled ribs hit the box behind himself and smiled uncomfortably. I didn’t tell you since we only ordered exactly 4 portions if we tried to split that unevenly, your siblings will make a mess of things did give us some nuts though, and they don’t like those. I smiled allergic to nuts was stunned, but only for a second voice quickly drew him brushing me as he left, I couldn’t help clenching my knuckles at my side my feeling feeling like it been prick my needles after having a drink to calm down to the store to see that John and Jane had messed up entirely stiffly for early morning, called me saying that my application was accepted, but there was a problem you are going abroad after all explained that means your parents need to sign off the consent form. Have you told him about it? I clenched my fist at my side, but I smiled. I’ll handle it as soon as I emerged from Mr.’s office I bumped with a grumpy right beside her. He was throwing a childish tantrum not caring that others were there. I don’t care Jane and I are twins. If you want a piano recital, it would be so embarrassing. If I got nothing it’s not fair previously I would’ve been green eyed with jealousy upon seeing how affectionate and intolerant was, but now I quickly turned away and tried to leave however suddenly grabbed my wrist with a grip while issuing another order as if it was right first place some basketball competition didn’t you let John receive the award all right you know how competitive he gets with it for days my mind went blank instantly I just heard my throat feeling dry and having trouble talking still began for that competition. I had to know it’s hard but what is that trophy to the impatiently cut me short just give it to John or are you intent on seeing a family coral my eyes widen, even even as against the grief and rage flaring in my chest what about me must sacrifice everything, however impulse flaring faded as I remember the consent form in my bag and I hurt myself with a flat tone I’ve never used before, but you have to sign consent form first be prompt for happily turned to sweet top without even looking at the student student program in the title John however, he struck his shoulder as he walked past that had to make me waste my breath the whole time he said it was right, but it was the truth in the house his name kept quiet, clutching consent form in my hand tightly as it was the courage that kept me grabbing my trophy, then posted his friend group chat. Be promptly talk without even looking at the student exchange program in the title however, it was still glowing and he struck his shoulder as he walked past. He snorted from me the whole time he said it was right, but it was the truth of all the things in the house had his name on them I kept clutching in my hand tightly as it was the courage that kept me going grabbing my trophy, then posted his friend group chat as she demanded to celebrate her competitiveness, obviously so her parents decided to hold a grand banquet for them on the day of my birthday. They had planned to celebrate it for once, and I have been looking forward to it for months, confirming that everyone was clear for the occasion and fantasized about it, but reality made a fool of the party. Once we can celebrate your birthday some other day anyway, but your siblings will get really upset if we don’t host this party. They are always so competitive don’t be like them. I push my lips resisting the urge to tell them that this would probably probably be my last birthday with them just an attendant to ride with the cake. John and Jane stood side-by-side in front of it written all over their face. The relatives were cheering but suddenly out loud isn’t it Zack‘s birthday today that’s not enough cake I think Tim had already cut the cake, however, next time I guess cut a cake three ways anyway but I heard that countless times and I really should’ve known better. My parents could only be into two shares, and I never have any worried that I would throw a fit and ruin the party just like an attendant at the hotel. There wasn’t even time to. I finally took a break honestly raising twin to be charming, but just as mature, you shouldn’t keep favoring the twins all the time even if I kept telling myself that I didn’t mind, I couldn’t help stiffening as I waited eagerly for response and took a long while you won’t get it they are our children, but the twins have proven to be so much more to match and just look at him always having some cunning plan never bother to smile and he’s always so distant too. How could I bring myself like that guard my finger and water splattered the kettle held over my hand nothing compared to the pain in my heart of trembling it’s your birthday happy birthday. This is your birthday gift for myself, but I really have nothing else will be lucky as it has been for a pendant that was bought under 100 but I knew that it was the best my grandfather could do for me that came first when I tried however, I didn’t even cry with my parents. I could only give grandfather a hug to compose myself. It wasn’t easy to calm down, and when I return to the banquet I was gone I noticed the lint on John‘s neck, losing composure and holding my hand back. I ignored him. I said yelling and he looked at me. This isn’t fair grandfather gave you a pendant, but not me I just want my fairness fairness. I downloaded my voice shaking from rage as I vented all my frustration since since we were kids has been split between you and Jane. This is the first time I’ve ever received anything and you called that John flushed as he couldn’t argue, but that was when Jane rushed up, snatching the pendant of John’s neck despair it shattered into pieces while they’re done it’s gone and none of us have. Are you happy now even before I could snap back, slapped me viciously across the face that’s enough from you. I almost lost my balance. I clutched my face and disbelief. I saw the cold disappointment in her dark expression, then perhaps realizing that public outburst a child was embarrassing her rage at grandfather. I told you that you shouldn’t interfere with my children.